Little did I know that the day I became a mom everything would change, and I mean EVERYTHING! I now have a little human that depends on me and it is wonderful and hard all at the same time.
I found myself exhausted in those first few months. To be honest, I was barely functioning. Sleep was a high priority before becoming a mom, but as soon as my son was born that went our the door and I was just trying to survive on whatever sleep I could get.
Because motherhood is such a demanding job, I couldn’t figure out how to fit God into the picture. My son hated sleeping, literally. Still to this day he hates sleeping, so naps are rare, which means showers and time with Jesus are hard to come by. I have struggled with an overwhelming sense of guilt for not spending “quality” time with the Lord every day. I had become so used to being able to sit down with a cup of coffee and dive into Scripture, but this just wasn’t as feasible anymore (especially during the don’t put me down or I’ll scream my head off phase).
I talked to many moms, wondering if they found a secret to spending “quality” time with Jesus, but I came up empty. Instead, I learned I wasn’t the only one, and every mom struggles (unless maybe your child loves sleeping, if so you are so very blessed! ), and each phase brings different challenges.
So, if you are a weary mom like me, I want to give you some encouragement.
I am learning that I no longer need to feel guilty that my relationship with God has changed.
My relationship with God did not become worse because of my new mom life, it just became different.
I wouldn’t change my life for anything in the world. I love my baby boy, and I’m learning to love what my relationship with God looks like now.
I’m learning to love sweet moments talking with the Lord in the wee hours of the night in our rocker.
I’m learning to love finding one or two verses to meditate on throughout the day.
And I’m learning to love reading a devotional when I get a chance, where I get to hear someone else’s thoughts on a passage (because lets just be honest, some days I’m too tired to think for myself).
So weary mom, just give Jesus your best in whatever phase you are in.
All He asks is that we are faithful.
And love on your little human, or humans, with the love and grace God has poured out onto You!